Team M in the kitchen

Soooo....after a much needed Sunday afternoon nap I convinced hubby to help prep for forthcoming busy week.
Made some of my favourite tuna cakes and he fried up a dozen patties.
Prepared brown rice, cauliflower, coconut milk mushrooms and fried onions.
Had a great gym workout this morning then all diverted when we headed off to the Grahamstown festival. 
Had yummy beef kebabs and chips. Hot chocolate. Chop suey ric and shanghai steak. AND THEN I found the ultimate fudge guy. I almost kissed him. You just don't understand how divinely dreamy this fudge is. Anyways....one bar down. Hopefully the rest I can savour for longer than a week.
At least I haven't been craving chocolate or cake. Trying my best to make better decisions.

If only...

I had damnwell squatted and lunged a little everyday!
Been doing a mini workout in my garden with my doggies. It's been so nice as they think I'm playing with them. A bit of sprinting, squats, lunges, stepups, stretching and some yoga moves. So nothing fancy. Just hop around getting the heart rate up.
BUT the after effects are mighty. Sitting and getting up are a mission.
Makes me sooo mad that it is so simple yet I did not even put 5 minutes aside now and then to do something daily.
It seems to always for do or die. All or nothing.  Grrr.
Eating is ok'ish. Had to dispose of a mouth wateringly yummy slab of fudge last night. In my belly. Drool. Just remembering the taste makes my mouth water.
Today was good. Felt hungry. Only no no was a few Super C's after dinner. It's still early though and I feel desperate for something nice.
Such a long road ahead.  Sigh.

Sugar'holic

Hi. My name is Bernadette. I'm a sugar'holic. I need help.

Dreaded scale

So....I weighed this morning.  Eeeeekarooo shitballs. I knew I had packed on the pounds BUT the scale makes it so final.
Back to square one. Wow. What a disappointment.  ALL in my hands though. These bloody hands that keep stuffing my face.
Out comes the dreaded tuna diet. Consult with hubby that this is gonna happen.
Took the before pics. Now to dust off the will power.
Oi vey....

Challenge Accepted

So last night out with friends the usual conversations always lead to how fat we feel. I showed my progress pics from early last year and it inspired them to also track progress through photos. I could only shake my head in disgust that I let all the hard work go down the drain.
I'm right back where I was. It's now a workout just to get pants on.
Sadly I doubt I will ever be on the right path continuously. 
But ... let's see if this new challenge brings new direction

Failing body

My body bones joints muscles are eina.
I feel so frustrated that I just cannot seem to get ahead of this debilitating tiredness. Thought I had a relatively good night but by 11am I was desperate for a nap. Could only get one at 3pm and for two hours I was knocked out.
....sigh....
Long road ahead still...

Shoulda Coulda

If only my fat ass did a little bit of squatting and walking daily I wouldn't feel like the whale I am today. Now having to start over once again.
I want it but not bad enough to change the lazy stuck in a rut routine which has become my life.
It has been a turbulent few months and currently am ridding myself of things no longer serving my sanity well. It's so difficult though.
Let's see what I can accomplish in the next 30 days. Need to better my relay time.