Gentle does it

I've been taking it easy on myself. Not guilt tripping at every failure. It has made me regress a bit but this time it's ok I know what is necessary.
Training is going well still. Feeling much stronger. Getting through many more reps.
Run training is also going. Did a personal best recently. Haven't felt strong to get close again.
My head has felt funny lately. Like I'm waking up from being drugged. Fuzzy dizzy heavy head. I'm thinking it has a lot to do with not keeping up magnesium nightly. Also have had weird active intense dreams.
So back on miracle mag. Hopefully feel strong soon. Going to need all the strength I can get.

Carrot Cake Cupcakes

Took a chance with these but they were surprisingly good abd close to the real thing.
Hubby says they are too moist but I don't see a problem with that ;-)
Sorry I dont have a pic they dissapeared too quick.

2 cups almond flour
2 tsp baking soda
1 tsp salt
1 tBsp cinnamon
1 tsp nutmeg
1 cup dates
3 bananas
3 eggs
1 tsp apple cider vinegar
1/4 cup coconut oil melted
1 1/2 cups carrots grated
3/4 cup walnuts chopped

Preheat oven 180 degrees
Combine almond flour baking soda salt cinnamon nutmeg in a bowl
Blender blitz dates bananas eggs vinegar oil
Pour wet ingredients in with dry and stir well
Fold in carrots and walnuts
Pour mix into muffin tin with or without paper cups
Bake 30 mins

Frosting:
1 cup coconut oil
1/2 cup honey
1/4 cup cashew butter
2 tsp vanilla

Finally

Have a good rhythm going. Read a girls inspirational story and related to some of her experiences.  I now fast til about 11am daily. Some days are easier than others but it's working. After having a big wholesome breakfast the afternoons aren't filled with cravings.
My newest obsession though is lindt dark mint intense. I really need to get a grip and slow down with it. But it's actually the best choc I've had in a long time.
My weight on scale hasn't shifted but I feel leaner. Can feel my hip bones coming through. It's been many many years since I've seen them. Forgot they were there. LOL.
Started hitting the tar more often. Am loving it. Now hubby is joining me too. Like having a body guard. But he has way too much energy and bounces around like a kid. Kinda off putting at times.
So still on this tough journey to better health. Just have found a way for less anxiety about food.

Feeling left behind

I can't help it. I'm forever comparing my results to others.  But I know I shouldn't as I'm not very good to sticking to any eating plan.
This morning I did measurements.  Got so upset. In 3 months hardly any results. Even though eating not well I have been training hard (ish). I guess I should be grateful that results stayed same.
Yesterday I started a fasting technique. I'm managing quite well on it. Don't eat until 11am.
I need to make a commitment,  this time, I'm so tired of letting myself down. My mission is to stay away from cakes desserts and chocolate.  Limiting breads and dairy. For at least 30 days.
Don't know how many more times I can break this promise to myself.
Also want to up training. Hit the tar on Monday. Want to do it more. Also made a run date with a friend which I'm looking forward to.
Need to get my ipod sorted. Music is key to keep moving.

Color Run

Even though weather was totally miserable, a friend and I braved the cold. It was quite fun. Lovely route. Deffies a must do.

Still moving along

Some days I have to talk myself out of stuffing my face with bad foods. Other days I only realise what I've done when it's too late and I sit with a bloated gassy tummy.
But I'm still moving.  I am more forgiving to myself. As long as I'm doing more good than harm then I'll stay clear of where I dont want to be. At some point I'll make myself number one and beat the little bulges.

Look up Buttercup

I have been so down to the ground lately. Feeling sad angry frustrated tired. Probably literally shoulders slumped head down. Blinkers on. Rushing through the days like a machine just trying to get things done. Forgetting about ME, about all I have to be grateful for, all the happy moments I'm missing out on.
Stressing about every little thing.....I could carry on and on!
Enough is enough. Yes things are complicated and tough but I have a choice how to react to it. I want to smile. I want to breathe. Make time for ME and my friends.
So I'm not stressing about my eating and training anymore. I am doing more than most.
Making time to look pretty and for maintenance appointments.
Reminding myself of how far I have come.
So look up and smile. Be loud and proud. I am woman hear me roar. LOL!
;-)