W! T! F!

All I can do at the moment is shrug my shoulders, throw my hands in the air and bow my head in submission. Life has been torturous. I don't know anything I promise.
Just when I got a grip on my diet and gym schedule it all came crashing down around me. Cannot even put my brokenness in words. It is made worse by being sick. So I'm being gentle on myself and just letting it all be.
Hoping. Praying. For all this shit to end!