Seeing as I feel all the above but I'm pretty f'n tired of feeling sorry for myself, I thought that even though the title of this is negative I would try to only see into the future and put a positive spin on it. Let's see how far I can get....
~ Fit. Fitness. Gym. Run. Races. Parkrun. Move. Steps. These are key words to working towards a fitter me. Four days a week I have set myself appointments on my phone diary and am committing to respecting myself enough to not waiver unless someone is dying.
Monday - my favourite workout to get me started for the week is running on the treadmill at gym for 40 minutes, followed by stretching and some abs.
Tuesday - horse riding followed by an hour of pool laps at the gym
Thursday - my non favourite workout....WEIGHTS! I have a mental block but am determined to get past it asap.
Friday - Yoga.
Saturday - Parkrun or some or other race or dog walking.
For at least 3 days per week I am on a mission to attain over 10000 steps.
~ PHAT. Pretty. Hot. And. Tempting. Now just to believe in myself enough to feel that I look good. Good enough. That I am good enough. To stop comparing myself with the world.
Wednesdays are reserved for visiting with friends, doing something for myself like a Spa treatment or hair. Something that will reinforce that it is OK to be where I am at. It is OK to like myself. It is just all OK. A non food reward.
~ Flourishing. Happiness. Health. Hope. Smile. This mission will be to feel OK with my life as it is. I'm not capable of being superwoman anymore but that's OK, been there done that. To find happiness in my little life that I have down scaled to now. The simple things. Work on my mental health as well as physical health. All intertwined. Read more. Color more. Smell the roses. Be free. Have fun. Let go. Find my inner child. To be OK with not having to be the adult ALL THE TIME!
From my view point hugemungous missions. But it will be taken one day at a time. Sometimes it will be taken one hour at a time. Maybe even minute to minute. I got no choice really. Life is happening with or without me. Somehow I will make it. 'i hope so' - self doubt is so overbearing. Pffft.
You are strong, you are damn beautiful and you are amazing. You might not always feel it, but that does not change the fact that you are. No matter how down you get, you always get yourself up and going again and that is admirable!
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