Doing this

It's been two weeks,I think, of making a commitment to myself with a friend for support. Excercise has been good. Two races in one weekend. 
Smoothies are still my first love. Cannot skip a day without it.
Havnt craved naughty stuff. Just when I get emotional there's a void that I feel carbs will fill. There has been in my face temptation but I survived.
Not sure if there is any change yet. Trying not to weigh.
Made the most amazing experimental dinner tonight for ladies night.
Balsamic cranberry brown rice.
Cauli mushroom cheese sauce.
Sweet potato mash.
Kudu fillet.
My friend brought Toffee frozen yogurt and kiwi pear green ice tea.
Perfect meal. Enjoyed the whole evening and no food regrets.

Smoothie Love

Did it. Finally bought a smoothie maker. Thanks to my friend for introducing it to me. I'm sooooo addicted. It's so easy. Filling. I choose a smoothie over any meal or treat.
I feel less bloated. I feel lighter.
Just great.

Fat Days

Fat days are becoming way too frequent. It's been a while since I had a tantrum in my closet. Winter is supposed to be a good time to layer on and cover up but when the only long pants I own turn into a zumba class to get on my heart sinks.
Even more heart wrenching is shopping in the fuller figure section for a size 38. Seriously? 
Feel so sick to my stomach that I haven't even felt like eating. Have had constant heartburn.
Hating myself right now....

Team M in the kitchen

Soooo....after a much needed Sunday afternoon nap I convinced hubby to help prep for forthcoming busy week.
Made some of my favourite tuna cakes and he fried up a dozen patties.
Prepared brown rice, cauliflower, coconut milk mushrooms and fried onions.
Had a great gym workout this morning then all diverted when we headed off to the Grahamstown festival. 
Had yummy beef kebabs and chips. Hot chocolate. Chop suey ric and shanghai steak. AND THEN I found the ultimate fudge guy. I almost kissed him. You just don't understand how divinely dreamy this fudge is. Anyways....one bar down. Hopefully the rest I can savour for longer than a week.
At least I haven't been craving chocolate or cake. Trying my best to make better decisions.

If only...

I had damnwell squatted and lunged a little everyday!
Been doing a mini workout in my garden with my doggies. It's been so nice as they think I'm playing with them. A bit of sprinting, squats, lunges, stepups, stretching and some yoga moves. So nothing fancy. Just hop around getting the heart rate up.
BUT the after effects are mighty. Sitting and getting up are a mission.
Makes me sooo mad that it is so simple yet I did not even put 5 minutes aside now and then to do something daily.
It seems to always for do or die. All or nothing.  Grrr.
Eating is ok'ish. Had to dispose of a mouth wateringly yummy slab of fudge last night. In my belly. Drool. Just remembering the taste makes my mouth water.
Today was good. Felt hungry. Only no no was a few Super C's after dinner. It's still early though and I feel desperate for something nice.
Such a long road ahead.  Sigh.