Epic BurnOut!

It's official! My body has finally said stuff you and the broomstick you rode in on.
After months of serious stress and tension and non stop crazy shit the day we leave on "holiday" I wake up with a swollen lip from a fever blister. Which stresses me out even more as I had a big radio interview too. Slept a lot first two days. Went horseriding, had a marvellous ride and then my husband gets thrown off. Oi vey! End of holiday. Feel worse anyway so better to rest at home.
My birthday on Monday sucked big time. Broken body. Broken husband. No spoils.
Go to doc barely functioning, not even sure how I managed to get there as I didn't feel like I was within myself. Examines me and says oh boy! Two injections and a bag full of meds later I'm home bound for bed and no gym for a while. Eish. There goes the summer challenge. Although I'm eating horridly I'm still losing weight, so I suppose that's not a good sign either.
I was way too active today but I do feel a bit better.
Here's hoping I can start thinking of only me from now til new year.

Big Walk

Pouring with rain. Practically flooding. And where am I ... at a fun walk. Not something anyone would expect from ME.

I walked a bit but the crowd was getting to me. So the first chance I got I set foot. My poor Nike's wished they were waterproof. There were deep puddles everywhere.
Got some nasty comments along the way coz I was running. And got hugely slated for my outfit.  Pffft at least I was dry.
Got my medal. Booojah. Added to my collection.

Fun FUN RUN

Got last minute word on a fun run 18 October and entered day before. The new running buddies were so awesome. Lovely people. Took a bit of strain as there were quite a few up and down hills. But still managed to keep my normal time of 30mins for 5km.
Had some nasty people to avoid which put a damper on the run but just long enough to push ahead. LOL!

Oh boy

So over the weekend I got the bee in my bonnet to gut a depressing room and turn it into a home gym. I thought the project was going to be too big as I'm insanely busy. But I took two afternoons and it was done. Repainted and all.
We have so much equipment but it was shoved in garage. I'm so happy we finally have what I've dreamed of. Now just for some inspirational posters and then to use it. Haha.
All in good time to as fate would have it. This mornings training was met by - We all doing summer challenge so are you!
Uhm ok do I have to.
Yes you wanna lose weight dont you?
Talk about blackmail. Measurements and all taken. Goal set. Then I messaged later to say there's no way I can manage that high goal. LOL!
THEN I had a major flat afternoon coupled with numbing headache.
Chip n Dip Lemon Twist Donuts for dinner. Major fail. I suppose I'm trying to fail before I even begin as I really don't want another challenge on my plate. I just want my holiday to come. NOW!

Perception

Us. Women. We are ALWAYS so hard on ourselves. The easiest thing for us is to find fault. Always tell our friends there's no need to nitpic at their bodies as we think they are gorgeous. But we don't listen to that ourselves. And rarely take compliments well.
I've been blessed with getting tons of compliments lately. I can acknowledge that my body looks better than beginning of year but within I feel like I'm no where near where I want to be to warrant getting these compliments. 
I sure as hell am not eating 100% clean. Which in turn makes me angry coz I could have been so much further.
No matter which battles we are each fighting we all have this one enemy in common - OURSELVES!

Gentle does it

I've been taking it easy on myself. Not guilt tripping at every failure. It has made me regress a bit but this time it's ok I know what is necessary.
Training is going well still. Feeling much stronger. Getting through many more reps.
Run training is also going. Did a personal best recently. Haven't felt strong to get close again.
My head has felt funny lately. Like I'm waking up from being drugged. Fuzzy dizzy heavy head. I'm thinking it has a lot to do with not keeping up magnesium nightly. Also have had weird active intense dreams.
So back on miracle mag. Hopefully feel strong soon. Going to need all the strength I can get.

Carrot Cake Cupcakes

Took a chance with these but they were surprisingly good abd close to the real thing.
Hubby says they are too moist but I don't see a problem with that ;-)
Sorry I dont have a pic they dissapeared too quick.

2 cups almond flour
2 tsp baking soda
1 tsp salt
1 tBsp cinnamon
1 tsp nutmeg
1 cup dates
3 bananas
3 eggs
1 tsp apple cider vinegar
1/4 cup coconut oil melted
1 1/2 cups carrots grated
3/4 cup walnuts chopped

Preheat oven 180 degrees
Combine almond flour baking soda salt cinnamon nutmeg in a bowl
Blender blitz dates bananas eggs vinegar oil
Pour wet ingredients in with dry and stir well
Fold in carrots and walnuts
Pour mix into muffin tin with or without paper cups
Bake 30 mins

Frosting:
1 cup coconut oil
1/2 cup honey
1/4 cup cashew butter
2 tsp vanilla