Energize

This is my key word. Energize! My 'go-to' word when I catch myself thinking negatively, am in pain, want to give up. Energize! The word itself sounds jazzy upbeat positive. Suppose it's the letter 'Z' that makes the difference. Energize! Zingy. 
The definition gives it more power for my purpose. "give vitality and enthusiasm to" "supply energy, typically kinetic or electrical energy, to something"
Even the synonyms. "enliven, liven up, vitalize, invigorate, perk up, excite, electrify, stimulate, fire up, motivate, move, drive, encourage"
I want to feel all these positive feelings. I want to push away these dark dreadful negative pulses that consume me. ENERGIZE! Do I believe it yet.....
Today I knocked out a good gym session. Ran on treadmill. Abs. Stretch. Was in pain, wanted to give up. Energize! Came home to frustration, washing, dog throwing up. Energize! I'm fading fast, back hurts, weighted feeling on chest. Energize! Energize! Energize FFS!